i've lost motivation, again.

D;

Time to send out those job app's, resumes, and cover letters. ;___; I'll never get a break from this. Blargh.

I've been back home since last Saturday, lazy enough to do my quarterly/annual "omg end of the year!must post my deep thoughts and reflection!" blog, but I can't 'cause thinking and typing are difficult :P

But I'm pleased with myself, grades wise :) Really pleased. I've never done so well in a quarter before :)

GEOG315: 3.9
-A required course on conducting Geography/Social research. I was praying for a 3.2 because I suck at writing
GEOG469: 3.9
-GIS Community project. Thought I'd get a 3.7 seeing that GIS group project sucked majorly and one of the group members was a total stoner and didn't do shit, and made me and the other guy do everything. But I told my TA about it 'cause I'm a bitch :P
ECON435: 4.0!!!!! (iknorite!)
-My cute, nerdy, brown, pescatarian haired TA!! Oh Daniel, you are so nice!!! I hope you will teach more about Environmental Economics!!! <3

I'm working full time for SPU for the rest of summer to save up $$$ for HK&Tokyo!! It sucks crawling out of bed at 6:30am M-F, and have to be at work at 8am - but the paychecks are gonna be bomb :) And I'm learning so much!!! AHHH.

Went out to Red Door in Fremont with Liz, Alix, Dah, Karli, and a few of Karli's friends. I'm glad I'm being social.

I really enjoy talking to Liz and Sofie- they have really good insight. And Liz likes to speed like no other. But it's so much funnnnn :D :D :D

so close... ;__;

just gotta turn in my GIS group portfolio tomorrow morning.

not done until thursday . until then, i will continue to stress eat lyke crasiez !!

I had two somewhat insightful discussions tonight. And it made me realize that:

1. Do whatever you wanna do that makes you happy, 'cause it's your life. Just as long as it doesn't involve stuff like, Auschwitz (I spent 1.5 hrs Wiki'ing it.)

2. Who cares what people think about you? Especially those who aren't even your friends. You can't convince them that you're that "awesome" or whatever. It's hard to change the mindset that they have on you. And even if you do "change it", so what? Are they going to be your new BFFs? Are they going to sprinkle rose petals before you? Perhaps..

3. People need to learn to let go. Especially if they're the ones who said they wanted to end the damn friendship. This means no more bragging/whining/showing people old IMs&Texts. It's just immmature. If you say you don't want anything to do with Person X, then stop wasting your time bragging to other people about it. It's that whole, "say what you mean, mean what you say" thing.

4. Drama is stupid, and just adds more wrinkles to your face

5. If I've spent nearly a week trying to convince myself that I, maybe, just slightly, perhaps like him - it's a sign that I don't. The idea of being in a relationship is quite attractive, and that's probably what got me all hyped up at first. But it's died down. And he's so god damn tense all the time that it kinda makes me wanna just inject him with some concoction of pot and grey goose to loosen him up.

6. I should always back up my fucking papers. I don't know how, but I somehow deleted my Econ paper.. but I managed to recover half of it through some kickass Mac program.

Special cookies and booze do not mix well. Really.

Mac & Jacks = :)

Oh boy, I've made a biiig mistake.

ahahahahahah.

I donated blood for the first time today \:D/

Martha, one of my two supervisors at work, gave me the big news.

SPU's got enough money in their budget to guarantee me my position until the end of 2009!!! They're not sure about 2010 yet, butttt omgomgomgoggo!!! yesss!! I was so convinced that I was going to be laid off at the end of June!!

I'm definitely going to bust my ass and work 40 hrs/week this summer to make bank!!! $__$

Hooray for being able to hold off the job search for another 5 months!! :D :D :D :D

I hope he gets the internship!! There's an opening at the HR department where I was going to apply in case I was going to be laid off before summer. But now that I'm guaranteed my internship till the end of '09, I told him to apply for the other job. It'll be so much funnn <3 We could goto London together!! I kinda want to go to Spain/Barcelona or Italy instead now.. hmmm. I'll probably change my mind by tomorrow morning.

IMA: 2 lbs to go!! So closeeee~

I'm not Korean. Nor do I understand French. But god damnz, I would marry this man in a heartbeat just because of the way he serenades to this woman (note: MARRIED woman, puwahah. LOVE TRIANGLE, anyone??) at a parking garage. The actual segment from the movie is better 'cause it's just his vocals w/o the background music, but I can't find it on YT.

Apparently his French pronunciation sucks, but that's okay. I don't mind 'cause I don't even know French. He could sing the phone book for all I care and I'll still swoon :)



The moment you come to my side,
I love that look in your eye.
Yesterday I cried, but because of you today,
I’ll be happy tomorrow.

It’s not your face or style
but your soft love that I needed
to forget the past.
Without you, I can’t do anything anymore
I only know love. [in Korean]

IT'S SO IRRITATING THAT I HAVE TO POST IT IN MY LIVEJOURNAL.

I NEED BETTER JEANS.


UGHHH. THE ONES I'M WEARING RIGHT NAOOO, ARE NO GOOD!! DAME DESU YO! The reason why they're staying on are because of my belt, and the fact that I have big hips ahahahaha. But everytime I walk down a set of stairs, they slide off!!!!!! But once I wash this pair of jeans, and put them through the dryer, it shrinks and it fits well. Until 3 hours later when they stretch out and slide off hahaha JESUS. It's like, the first 3 hours these jeans make me feel hellah fat (like, I should go bulemic&anorexic at the same time type of fat feeling, or get my stomach stapled) 'cause it's tight and starchy and I don't need a belt. But 3 hours later, I get irritated the fact that people could pants me 'cause I forgot to wear a belt with them.

I SHOULD JUST WEAR SPANDEX FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE.

ALSO, I'M KINDA, OKAY MAYBE LIKE, REALLY PISSED AT MY GEOG GROUP RIGHT NOW 'CAUSE THEY DON'T EMAIL ME BACK ABOUT A FUCKING REPORT THAT'S DUE IN LESS THAN 2 HOURS FROM NOW, AND I'VE TYPED UP THE WHOLE SHIT. THIS IS GROUP PROJECT FOR CHRIST SAKES. I'M DOING IT ALL. I EMAILED THEM THE DRAFT OF THE PAPER LIKE 2 DAYZ AGO, AND THEY DIDN'T EVEN REPLY BACK. JESUS. THE LEAST THEY COULD'VE BEEN WAS LIKE, "HEY RITA, THIS LOOKS GOOD.. MAYBE ADD MORE TO THIS PART?? OR LIKE, HEY LET'S GET TOGETHER BEFORE CLASS AND FIX THIS SECTION.. ETCETC"
REALLY, I THINK I'VE BECOME SOMEWHAT ANAL ABOUT COMMUNICATION. BUT I WANT TO DO WELL IN THIS GEOG CLASS. MY 2 GROUP MEMBERS ARE GRADUATING THIS QUARTER AND SO THEY'VE GOT THIS, "OHHH FUCK ITTTT~ WE JUST WANT A 2.0 IN THIS CLASS LAH~" AND I'M LYKE, 'MOTHER FUCKER I WANT TO GET A 3.9 SO I CAN BE ON DEAN'S LIST AND SO I CAN GET THAT MOTHERFUCKIN KICKASS CERTIFICATE. FUCKING BITCHES DO YOUR PART OF YOUR DAMN WORK!!!" I MEAN, THIS ONE GUY IN MY GROUP, GOT A FUCKING 33/60 ON HIS MIDTERM AND HE WAS LIKE "OH. WE SHOULD DO WELL ON THIS PROJECT HUH? ^_^;;" AND WHEN HE REALIZED THAT HE COULD PROB GET A 3.5 IN OUR CLASS, HE WAS LIKE "WOWOWWWW, THAT'S THE HIGHEST GEOG GRADE I'LL EVER GET LOL" AND I'M LIKE, "FUCKERRRR!!!! I DON'T WANT A FUCKING 3.5!!!! I NEED A 3.8!!! WHY AM I STUCK WORKING WITH YOU?? YOU SKIP CLASS ALL THE TIME AND JUST GO SHOPPING FOR SNOWBOARD GEAR ONLINE WHEN WE SHOULD BE DOING OUR PROJECT WORK FUCKFUCKFUCK"

someone get me a joint.

Just for my own reference. Once school's out, I need/want to read:

- Tokyo & Hong Kong readings: 3 articles per week
- "Nickel-and-Dimed: On (not) getting by in America" by Barbara Ehrenreich
- "Cities with Invisible Walls" by Prof. Chan!!! (maybe on the plane?)
- "Scratch Beginnings: Me, $25, and the Search for the American Dream" by Adam Shepard
- FUCKING GRAD SCHOOL SHIT BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO WHEN I GRADU-FUCKING-ATE. Ughhh FMLFMLFMLFML
- "Growing Up Empty: How Federal Policies Are Starving America's Children" by L. Schwartz-Nobel
- "Fast Food Nation" by Eric Schlosser
- "Class Matters" by The New York Times
- "The Working Poor: Invisible in America" by David Shipler
- "What To Eat" by Marion Nestle (600+ PAGES!!!!)



I really want to do more Cost-Benefit Analysis and GIS related stuff for a career. Maps are fun. And I'd like to learn more social geography shit 'cause damnnnn, the world is hellah fucked. Not like I can change the world, but I want to learn more. I want to be an undergrad forever, prz!!!

omfg coffee prince is being made into a movie. i love you korea!!! prz keep the same cast.

what am i doing up on a saturday night? oh, reading a scholarly article on the contingent valuation & lost passive use of the exxon valdez spill. really.

i have no life ~

Finished with everything Monday night - even our Geog group project (I honestly didn't think we'd finish till Tuesday night). Totally bombed my Econ final, btw. I lost motivation to study for that exam. Grades won't come out till next week. D;

So to celebrate, Mike, Sofie, Andy, and I went to West Seattle for some bombass&expensive sushi - Mashiko. It was fdjakl;dfak amazinggg. ilusushi. Between the 4 of us, we spent over $90 on sushi (yaiknorite!!!)- it luckily didn't put a dent in my wallet 'cause Mike was sweet enough to pay for my share. It was my early b-day dinner I guess hahaha <3

I'll be spending the next two weeks making bank to pay for my Tokyo&Hong Kong fight tickets. Ughhh.

One more final tomorrow afternoon: Econ. Then I'm almost home freee~!

I have a Geog group project with Sofie and Mike that's due Wednesday morning. But if we bust our asses, we can probably finish Monday night or Tuesday afternoon. Then celebrate by going out for expensive sushi in Seattle \:D/

This quarter hasn't felt as stressful as last quarter. Probably because of that Econ of Finance/Capital/Investments class I had last quarter - srsly rose my blood pressure. I just need a 2.0 in this Econ class.. set your expectations low so then you don't disappoint yourself at the end! :D

I think I'm going to take a power nap. That way I can study till 4am, go to bed, and get up at like, 1pm and take my Econ final at 2:30 hahaha

RIP Jang Ja Yun.

I actually feel more upset about her death than my own great-grandpa's death back in August. Maybe it's because of all these photos. My great-grandpa lived till past 100, so I guess you could say he definitely had a good, long life. And we'd been expecting him to kick the bucket for the last 2-3 years. It just breaks my heart to hear that she'd committed suicide.

Today my heart broke a little bit.


Apparently Andy stopped by Parking. He stopped by to say 'hi' to everyone at the office before he began his nice drive down to Dallas, TX. He got a permanent job down there with Nokia.

Imagine: Evergreen State College grad going to Texas. Ahhahaha.



I'm really bummed out that I didn't get to say goodbye to him.

Univ. of Southern California: School of Policy, Planning, and Development's Master of Planning/Master of Public Administration dual degree. Or Master's in GIS.

UC-Berkeley's programs are nice too. But I'm too stupid. Maybe Oregon?? Egghh.

As much as I love the sun... I'm too chicken to leave Washington. But their program sounds really good. Dammit UW, why must u h8 meeee?!

Reading StarbucksGossip and baristas makes me miss working at Starbucks - getting free drinks, making my own wonky concoctions, my partners, and the bitchy/dumbass customers. I'm just glad that I got out before all the labor cut :|

Back to reading about the highway salting...D;

Oh, I've fallen in love with Jason Mraz all over again :)

"Why is there graphite on my hand?!?!"

Last night, Forrest ate pencil/graphite shavings out of what was a bag of Chex Mix. I practically peed my pants when Cody told him that he had just sharpened his pencils in that bag.




I deem Forrest as the captain of the failboat, for life.

I love those guys.